The inner world is full of my love for life
There are kites for little boys with their fathers
Aloft the coursing heights of Primrose Hill
Where the land is still for wealth and happiness.
These are the calculations within us
What is more to whom and what is less to what?
When the fly went swat against the wall,
The sensitive amongst us cried for the Garden of Eden’s Fall.
This then made us and them
To better the fruits of leadership for Zen
So that Sikh and Punjabi could go on and be happy
Without the Hindu being too into you, for Atman and it’s crappy
Take on reality.
This is what the unevenness is for me:
Stuck with depression misdiagnosed at the DWP.
They see my symptoms and flail and shout
Quietly twisting their heads with “we” and “I” all about.
So you have eyes and they see;
Did that make you equal to Mr Rsi?
For your use of my first name and familiarity
What contempt have you of court for being so silly?
Do you know I have a father far away from your throne
Where you toilet without yoga and toga that lonely bone?
Is your Greek not English enough for the outer world full of cars,
Can you speed past 30 MPH and call yourself 50 or 60 and …
… I Out of School
… II And “I’m’Ard”
Where are these classifications on the forms for my illness for the nation
While you Brexit World War Three and take the soul out of me?
Do you stand by corporate loss and hold Branson to be your boss:
Is one Wong Tong Soup enough for how much he knows and has [done]?
Let the Easterners have fun and see the conquer the world
You’ll find out what you want to know when you see their porn school girls:
What’s their symptom and how do you fell watching the world for failure and success
When you miss your underwear on your head and should work in a pink or blue dress?
The universe may be one verse if that is all that can survive
By the time Krishna is serving your dishes for a Gita that can strive:
To educate the Royal College of Mental Health after LRH
Who want wealth without wielding results for employment and Halo’s wraith.
Call to me again for a question of death and suicide
And we will talk about your hair and cut the crap from your Deicide.
Do you not know about my brother or is it just “the family” that turns your on;
And how was it when you ignored me “ONE TIME!” and turned the heat on “my mom”?
What did I do? after you left the zoo, prepared by London actors
To go into world after all those drinks and nights with girls
For some swirls and healthy advice that changed with time
To find classification on racial lines a subtle offence but not a crime…?
Mr, Dr and Professor: Where is your thyroid at your dresser?
Do you fix a result for the lack of your gut,
That will not keep the trap door shut?
What if you did not stand up to so many patients
Could your English defend one of my statements?
Is it my English when that is colour of my skin,
Or is my food when it could be cooked by Djjin?
Where is your culture, you European whore
After I suffered Xenophobia from thugs at my door?
What have you done to my country and tongue
When you asked about “normality”: What was that when you were young?
Did you get The Beatles were a shallow fashionable affair
And did you leave Mr Deranged Mahesh Rishi Yogi at the door
To keep your own mind so you could stay self-aware
Without the computer making up your imagination for I.P. addresses everywhere.
Si is not Cosine and Tangents you do explore
When you send 100 nurses into a traps of my own through my door:
What are their names, what do they do and how will they heal the world as Saviours too?
Where are their dishes in their restaurant business
After they eat Baltis and do a number 2?
A job without consequences has yet to equal
Something Ron Hubbard predicted when aimed away from the Steeple.
For the Psychiatrist helps the journalist troll the hats of Rastas and Beenies
Leaving that crap on the floor of the BBC with The Master called John Sweeney.
AI Summary
The poem confronts the failures of psychiatry, bureaucracy, racism, and cultural misunderstanding that have shaped the speaker’s life. It contrasts the beauty of the inner world with the violence of misdiagnosis, xenophobia, and institutional arrogance. The speaker challenges doctors, professors, and officials who treated him with contempt, while also exploring the complexities of diaspora identity, spirituality, sexuality, and family loyalty. The poem exposes how systems reduce people to categories, how racism distorts perception, and how the speaker’s intelligence and depth were repeatedly misread. Beneath the fury lies a profound longing for dignity, clarity, and a life not defined by other people’s errors.
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