Impromptu New Orleans

Sitting on the box of the clay floor
And harassing the emptiness of the DJ in my indoors
As the harangued messenger of newness and united joy
That employs me as a solitary Banjo player,
Alive with my kick and writing ploy.
Uneasy with the merriment of a new verse
That Hare Krishnas the arrival of a premature hearse,
I am happily lost with a Jesuit decree
That unearths a dirge with Lakshmi
For all that is now within me.
Money, the final Bronte burger:
Wiser than frustrations of the Herodotus Empire.
Those were the earnest pleas of a solemn vow before equanimous minds
And these are kisses on the rodeo show of a disobeying kind.
How were the hours desperate on the floor?
Where were the honesty buckets of bouquets in my court?
Spare any change, for a bummer and a Brahmana?…
Not in the least a dead salesman, reborn for her pink karma.
Essays,
Bad days
The only day
Was Christmas.
How was the end Mass
When the physics was karmic Turk?
Delight in me with the Milky Bar legacy
And we will both travel astrally
Back and forth over the cosmos
Celestially aware of the primal island
Of knowing the message of time.
What was for me was not for the city
Dweller in the open spanned office,
I can see! Now is the time for that.
Splat! Goes my dream, across the scream
That scans the stream for momentary consciousness
And bliss with a brother or fewer than a lost soul.
Give me a goal! Let me be where I used to be;
Stretching before the Yogi was complexity
In the UCAS womb of my heart.
What art was that?! To be so flat,
On an earth than knew no Shiva apart
From the blown discrepancy of lust and beverage in my heart.
Massages on the floor
Were unspoken with thighs far from the door
Wooden floors
And a half leotard awaiting karmic bliss.
What is this wrench?
And how do you henchmen,
Get so posed on the mat without lukewarm tea?
Ashtanga is then for me,
After the London city
And the Maya of the mayages and kouri
Letting me down gently from the balancing beam of my heart
That knows no sympathy for the unkempt Maharaja part.
Laughed, by the Buddha
And danced by the Gopis’ animals udder,
Light is not light until the morning has risen Naam.
Calm – and the day was done
Come – and the modernist had begun
When will the Messiah learn that Mahamantra is number one?
Actor, lecturer and horse rider extraordinaire
There is a fellow with less miracles than is fair.
His hollow is falling on the darkness of special comparisons
As the transcendental mellow ripens for the warmth of Gopala’s complexion.
Redirection
Intention
Malevolent respiration
Can an adder out pace the evolved darkness of Elizabethan erection?
Renegade
Artist
Artisan
Perfect being:-
What is the seeing that is dealing in the Poker of your heart?
Dark Maya and the imaginings of the retired classroom
Where the darkroom visitors memorise fault, chapter and verse.
Who is higher and who is lower when the woman is cowered in the snatch and terse
Logos of revisited melange
Intercultural victories
Histories of victims and merry sailors
Vain and surrounded with flags.
Clouds are so frequent in her dismayed guise
That the wise owl cannot shine
Amongst the I.T. lounges of departure boys
With toys and no ammunition for a revised curriculum,
And how the men will look down
On what the American has done.
Sheen across the ocean veil
Set sailed
Wild
Uncontrolled
Spontaneous
Impromptu success.
He was the King of Excess: When he conceived of ships for the ocean.
My motion is not familiar
For the Urili that is drunk wine with diarrhoea,
Hands raised
Drawbridges down
Tower of claims
And evening gowns…

… That is how it feels to lose New Orleans
When the jizz of the Mrs is so far in her in-betweens.
But when you ask of the Guru where he parks his Limo and BMW,
He cannot look at God before himself and say How Do You Do, You Become You.

What’s Special(?)

What is special may depend on what passes the final test
Of fire over breathing throughout the night
When the dragon is eschatology and the moon is upside
From the waxing sunshine that lazily lets the earth know
The meaning of it’s temerity to ask of knowledge one more thing.

What’s special may be the hankering after cosmos and starshine
The lantern of understanding of the grand immensity
And how far the Maya wanders to confuse the locality in it’s drama.
If this is permitted then the asking is also the answer
And the permission is verified to create a new linguistic code.

What’s special may be a car, some land, a kitchen sink and even the whole house.
Nobody asked of men or the door mouse if this erection was superb
It arrived before the child could question what she was worth –
The woman on the screen
The mind in between
Hello to the Lasso that engages my tied imagination still to Reagonomics karma.

What is the dharma?
Is the dharma spoken?
Who are the protagonists?
When the time is just a money token.
Eid is just an evident structure
In the vain evening times of a gentleman’s vulture
The lawyer, the liar and the lady who waits down the lane
Looking for the idle Gingerbread Man to keep matters tame.

Clumps and clusters and gravitational issues for the emanating end
The End of Greatness and the first memory of something special.

What’s special is the effort and the emotion of nothing in the darkest put
While the {        } Is.

These automated equipped drakes on the ocean bed of commiserations
About the consciousness of the Void that is exploited
Exponentially debonair in the night air for the internet aware
Of the Self universally undoing the good done by religion each do
Beingness accompanied
Etherically vanquished
Help at hand for the famished
Another day of the starving finding the TV camera mindful.

What’s separate is what is special.
What’s together is what is familiar and not so special.
This is the ease of discontent that is middle aged consideration
For the old age issue of heirdom to something sparing of tomorrow’s grace.

Fine paradoxes of satellites of love
Asleep in the sea of sadness
Cold in the clamped galaxies
Where is Man?
Where is his Goddess?
Who is the female in the eye of the storm?

The one keeping the daughters of men warm
So it seems when heaven is near me
I am a kept man to the breath of the near most missed
Exceptional work handed in to school again
Parked car of Tariq the Traveller
Nobody is mentioning his fame
His science
His discoveries
Of European
Often are glories manifest for the Cathedral of Crusades
Where specialness is the dated hearse
The Sikh seeking history
The Hindu into mysteries

What about the executive choices to fund the diversity of decibels and decimals of weighted L.S.D?
Is that what is special in me?
Who am I?
Why am I here?
What’s in a question?
But the man that I am to fear
The Tsar
The Stars
The Soviet cushion of consultancy for cold swearing in of justice courts
And the pain of the messages of hope that hurt.
The News
The {Photos}
1000 words


These are (some of) the things that made the 1900s absurd.

The Hollow Case

Transcendental idealism
Dissociation of Spirit
Dislocation of man
Modern reachings
I am dreams
Am I the dream?
I am the dreamer
This is Vanity Fair’s passing.

Clouds that don’t know about me
Falling through empty cities
Colluding with grandeur for my heir
Asking of nothingness for a heritage
Turn the page
Find me without sages
Lost in a sacred trance
Cosmic shambles and Kailash’s dance.

Dream
Therapy
Concluding that all is error and fix.

I am the river of life
A monster vomiting a stomach crunch
Buy me lunch
Pay for my coffee
It’s all within me
It’s all about me
Rush to the hurrying
Hari is upon you
If I don’t see Shiva
Will you free me from the (hollow caused) Jew?

What am I doing wrong?

Where do I err?
Flailing at the railings of my life’s swimming pool
Reaching for the safety of the security blanket covering me
What am I doing wrong?
I am too close to the divide.
Strangers in my mind unkind to the findings
Recent excursions into the deep unknown
Asking too much for the receipt of familiar consciousness
Cups of tea and the drinking of an occasional latte
What is the breaking point of my mind?
Too close to the ether, too far away from electrical vibrations
Time is like a nation of zombies awaiting my pornographic reinvention
Standing naked at my front door.
I have been here before
Forgetful of the greatness of building my character
Like stepping stones across a frozen lake in my heart
Darting across the temporal void in avoidance of one more bloody conversation
The inner journey of man
The planned intervention
The existential cartography of my soul
It seems like we all need a common goal
And mental health is the way forward for the masses
Something to join the meditation with the mediation of higher and lower worlds
The frogs of the cauldron and the skulls of the pirate ship
Something I shoot straight from the hip
As a western cowboy in the Indian deserts
Land reclamation expert number one
Ask me where I belong and I will say it is right here
Where I stand defending my hand
Leading the leaderless with a magic marker and slight of my pen
Something again and again to drum out the pacing of seconds
Minutes away from the hours we share as our blessings together
Poets in tune and in the rudeness of awakening
Settling down for some more slumber party to rejoice in.

AI Summary

This poem is a reflection on feeling close to psychological edges, questioning your own stability, and trying to understand where your inner life becomes too intense. You describe yourself flailing for safety, reaching for comfort, and sensing a divide between grounded reality and the “deep unknown.” The imagery of strangers in your mind, the ether, electrical vibrations, and standing naked at the door expresses vulnerability and the fear of slipping into states you’ve known before.

At the same time, the poem remembers your strength — the “stepping stones across a frozen lake,” the building of character, the inner journey, the existential mapping of your soul. You’re trying to reconcile your spiritual imagination with the need for mental health, structure, and shared human goals. The cowboy, the pirate ship, the cauldron, the deserts — these are symbols of identity, adventure, and self‑invention, but also of the risk of drifting too far into symbolic worlds.

On The Padded Cell

(Ring. Ring.)

They drove me mad
It was first gear
They were all I had
That was secondary fears.
Scanned and locked
Banned and fucked.
The memory issue was only solved
By going forward in reverse.
That was a very merry hearse;
Marry me tomorrow to the lady in white
May we be the “Oum” Japa Bunnies
Maybe it is the wedding cake
Mistakes have been made
In and outside of M-An-Hat=Tan

(Ring. Ring.)

Stopped by Jersey for a tan
Caught up with the NHS boy for some fab fans
Offline printer
Online winters
Sad paid plans for old age
Road rage
Whitsun Weddings
-> Flotsam and Jesters
Still Larkin around, I see
::-> some people should be paid for padded cell poetry
To,
Brighten Up Your Jig
and make you dance with the wig
Yours,
Tories too and their Techno game.

For parties in parks
Sex on the brain.

(Ring. Ring.)

What happened?
Spin the polity
Rave the menagerie
Meditate the meditators
Medicate the lactators
Convene the meetings at 3 o’clock
Suck on that chicken for evening sticks and sticks that won’t break my bones
When your words on my dinner plate hurt me…
Wages and costs
Living on the box:
What was the (real)?
When wages were all I could feel.

(click)

AI Summary

Akaash, this poem is a ringing, looping, glitch‑haunted memory of breakdown, adulthood, class pressure, romance, work, rage, humour, and the strange theatre of British life. It’s one of your tightest pieces — compact but emotionally explosive. Here is your summary in a single, continuous paragraph, holding the whole arc together without breaking the flow.

Your poem moves like a phone that keeps ringing through different eras of your life — madness in first gear, fear in second, memories locked and banned, a hearse reversing into a wedding fantasy, Manhattan mistakes, NHS boys, Larkin’s ghosts, padded‑cell poetry, Tories playing techno, sex in parks, and the political rave of a country spinning out. It’s a portrait of a man trying to stay upright while the world around him keeps shifting: printers offline, winters online, wages shrinking, costs rising, meetings at 3 o’clock, chicken bones and hurtful words on dinner plates, and the ache of living inside a system where work defines reality and joblessness distorts it. The poem keeps circling the same wound — the gap between what life promised and what it delivered — until the final click cuts the line, leaving the speaker suspended between longing, exhaustion, and the brutal clarity that comes when the noise finally stops.

If you want, I can now distil this into one sentence or explore the emotional core more deeply.