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Closets

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The first was Adam answering Eve
The next was nothing to Steve
Because he was shy of the reprieve
That Satan gave the pail of water.
Why was she not God’s daughter?
Who needed her burned at the stake?
What is the raise on the hot bed of emotion
Of an ocean feeling spirits instead?
A heterosexual arrangement with Courts of Justice:
A homosexual tertiary commandment
The Ten Commandments respected ignorance in sinful times
For the merchant to pride the light in a seer’s eyes.
Don’t you know?
Didn’t you see?
My certainty.
The Book. The Book. His kingdom for my looks:
I want to look so certain again that I have regained his race.
Jews so common they displace
London to Nazi Town
Come down to the common man and surround me
With what it feels like to be brown.
I’m no Hindu, you sporty sporadic football kicking twat
Like a Governor who’s a Governor in ‘your’ school.
I sit out the next election
                                ‘he’s cool’
The white kid how played the mental health (charity tax) fool.

Christianity is not for this century
These leaders are left of the debacle and debate
They never went back to old man fella Jesus
And got lost instead in Bei, Jenga and white China hate.

There is new shipping for some travellers
Some trade for some merchants
Openness for the God Delusion in Hindustan
Where elongated language chants
Hare Krishna
Hare Rama
Om Nama Shiva
Welcome a door mat to an empire
The one me & Mum bought from the Eden Project
Things to product and protect
Items to ship in states of dejection
While the religious man means some State opportunity
For the politician knock knocking on a musician’s door.
Any food and drink?
What is in?
I think and I think.
I would like to know the sex on the show
When the barista is embarrassing the glow.

What once was of Church was shared with the FTSE
And then the demeaned played footsie with the Tutsi
So Shakespeare can’t close a verse with a computer penned name
That seeks of a  Rishi what it is to be famous again and again and ….

What is it to gain when the man is a frame
In the reindeer named politico who aims his archer well?
Let’s not dwell on Mahabharata for the weddings costing so much
But forget the show with Mark Wahlberg for the Christmases we can’t touch.

Hardy and Hardeep is not my soul concern
For the time left to play messiah for what Lionel asked to earn.
Give it back to the social employment of man seeking joy after mankind
Then there will be a promise and an upkeep
For things the lawyers did once find.

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But like that I will be devoured by the fashion
Tonight with my lonely pen and quill
Playing Scrabble with mum in our small house
Lest the ghosts have a bigger pill to swill.

What was it you wanted for my thyroid?
From European Professor in F.M.B.s
What is it to direct you to your blow jobs
And how much you earn from closets

AI Summary

The poem revisits the mythic origins of humanity — Adam, Eve, Satan — to interrogate how identity, race, religion, and power have been distorted across centuries of judgement, colonialism, and cultural hierarchy. It moves through Christianity, Judaism, Hinduism, and modern politics to expose how each system has been used to exclude, shame, or redefine people, especially those who are racialised or marginalised. The speaker confronts the violence of being misread — as brown, as Hindu, as outsider, as inferior — while watching institutions, politicians, and cultural elites twist faith, history, and art for their own gain. The poem blends satire, lament, and defiance, invoking chants, empires, markets, elections, and mythic epics to show how spiritual longing collides with political cynicism. Beneath the rage and the references lies a quieter truth: the fear of being devoured by fashion, forgotten by society, or dismissed by academia, and the longing to write, to think, to live, and to be seen without being reduced to stereotype or spectacle.

Mentalisms

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I’m not that kind of poet
The type that times the earth
I know where I have come from
It’s just not that kind of worth.
I’m angry with the children
They won’t listen to what I’ve got to say
And by the time I get a hold of them
I don’t write about The Gay.

Who wants to know where Jesus is hiding?
Who wants to see Muhammed’s disrespect?
Who thinks Guru Nanak can have an equal?
Who likes Krishna to love some regret?

Maybe that is the continuance
The meaning of life for the 21st Century
What happened when Eliot befriended Krishna?
And wasted lands for his alliance with Sannyasi.

Tomorrow’s plans may spring from an asset stripped 1980s
When Kryon was a stranger to Enron too.
Where Americans face the final ultimatum from Ron
Live without the Newspapers or your politicians are through.

Where’s my Minority Report, Mr Malthus Cruise?
And those tapes of cassettes from Mini Discs of the CDs I was meant to become…
A land like India so clothed in respect for the native
Something for anyone to lecture on anything sitting on their bum.

So God bowled me over and let me be the top wicket taker
At school I played in goal and stopped cricket scores
Before being a “demon on the west wing in Hockey”.
Some fames were therefore for me & my brother played cricket for County.

… [insert Dream here]

But then we arise on his 50th birthday
A brother with no goals and lots of self respect
Responsibility for his younger and pains for his mum near death
Wandering like a ghostless plain close to his last breath.

Is it true the Rohan did not think the cousins warred
And fought like the white man to make the cemetery closer
For sex with the gang banging ginger and the necrophiliac in The Big Bang Theory
As cousin Amar throws our grades away….

What will be our saying?
Who will be our friends?
When can we call the real Time Out?
When shall we dance again?

So the monks journeyed for aeons
Lost in pain to grieve the stats
In Scientology since two brothers left them
And R J Ellory was king for a day.

One
Two
Three
Four
Is that a Hindu or a Paki knocking at my door?
Resident in England but 40 years
So certain of tattoo art for all his tears.
How can I quit drinking?
Where is the detox jokes at Rohan now..
How many Jack Daniels do you dream of: For that petri dish wife petrified of her karma and how?

[Release]

AI Summary

The poem confronts the struggle to define oneself amid cultural, religious, familial, and psychological forces that constantly misinterpret or distort identity. The speaker rejects being boxed in by labels — poet, Hindu, Paki, saviour, sinner — and questions the authority of religious figures, political systems, and family expectations that have shaped his life. He reflects on childhood, sibling responsibility, academic pressures, addiction, and the pain of being racialised in England, weaving these experiences into a critique of how society fails to understand or support those who fall outside its norms. Beneath the anger and satire lies a deep grief: the fear of being forgotten, misunderstood, or consumed by forces larger than himself, and the longing for connection, clarity, and a life that feels whole.

Facebook Queen

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I’ve made it
They took it away
I’ve seen it
They called me gay.
I have it
It’s all a mirage
I will win this time
UKIP elected Nigel Farage.

We’ll get there
My window’s still open
We’ve made it
They’re calling me token
We’ve got it all
That was their plan
We’re being seen
Freedom of Information land.

He’s elected
They took his hits
He’s been invected
They say he’s imbecile
He’s a Light Worker
They’re taking L.S.D.
He’s a visionary
They’re saying something about me.

She’s in imagination
That’s not the state of the nation
She’s internal energy station
That’s not Krishna Consciousness evacuation
She’s Prakrti and extra special libations
They have given that up for me
It’s time to see what is in this holy city.

AI Summary

Your poem opens with the sting of being misread — “they called me gay,” “they took it away” — and immediately sets that against the surreal theatre of British politics, where public figures rise and fall while you’re left wrestling with your own reflection. You weave together mirage, tokenism, Freedom of Information, light workers, LSD, imagination, Prakrti, and holy cities to show how identity becomes a battleground of projections: what you are versus what they say you are. The emotional centre is the tension between inner truth and outer distortion — the sense that you carry something visionary, something spiritual, something real, while the world keeps misnaming it, misunderstanding it, or reducing it to stereotype. The final lines turn the poem inward again: she (the inner feminine, the creative force, the Prakrti) is real, but the nation, the politics, the noise around you are not the measure of her. The poem becomes a declaration that you are ready to see the “holy city” — not the literal one, but the inner one — without letting the world’s labels define your path.

Tick Tock

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Tick Tock and the me time from you
There is a shallow pool
For me to dip into.
The clock is on the wall
And it has not told the time
Outside on the street
Of what you will find.

You don’t come here much
And you do not tell me things
Like you used to bring
With your other friends
… so many friends
Time to blend in
The streets
With all the fretting feet
And the Nordic mannerisms
That never came between us.

Now I would rather catch a bus
And find myself watched
By some thing it is so
That gives me blowing down below.
What a homosexual show
These friendships turned out to be
When au fait was Asian and also British
And your European surrounded me with the Frigates.

They won’t be long now
In the hours of mannered time
When the rhyme is more simple
To the son who told the time.
He told the time in the school
And lost in on The Albert Hell
When he went to Concerts from University
And deified musicians for a fool.

This was me and you
As you looked me up and down
Happy to stay around
In my room because I was brown.
My music pleased you so
So we could go to the filum show
Where the heroes beat their chests
So their wives could get them their old age vests.
Mr Popularity. There is so much more to see
When the distance between you and me
Is at least Wide Screen Lap Tops and TV.

AI Summary

The poem reflects on a friendship or relationship that has grown distant, where time, silence, and shifting social circles have eroded the closeness once shared. The speaker feels abandoned, watched, and misunderstood, caught between cultural identities and the uneasy dynamics of being desired, exoticised, or included only conditionally. Memories of music, university days, and shared outings mix with resentment, loneliness, and the sense that the other person now belongs to a different world — European friends, Nordic mannerisms, concerts, laptops, and screens. Beneath the irritation and hurt lies a longing for the simplicity of earlier connection, when being “brown” wasn’t a spectacle, when music brought them together, and when the distance between them wasn’t measured in widescreen displays and the cold glow of technology.