Strains

When the MAC is under attack
From the past
From the past
The echos of silent chambers resound around the battleless brain
Causing strains
Causing strains
Mental strains and regaining Paradise with Allegro and the motionless audience
Absorbing the Concerto in the final standing
When the Chinese are pounding the phones for an encore.
Always leave us wanting more, Shantideva
And the emptiness of following Krishnamurti’s chair
When the dies at the end of the Godfather
Leaving our souls aware of the Trilogy.

AI Summary

Your poem evokes the MAC as a site of psychic attack, where echoes from the past reverberate through a “battleless brain” trying to regain a sense of Paradise through music, Allegro, and the stillness of an audience absorbing a final Concerto. You weave together Chinese encores, Shantideva’s teachings, Krishnamurti’s empty chair, and the death scene from The Godfather to show how culture, spirituality, and cinema all become mirrors for your own awareness. Beneath the references is a deeper tension: the struggle to stay present while the past keeps pounding at the door, demanding interpretation, demanding encore after encore. The poem ends with a quiet recognition that trilogies — spiritual, cinematic, personal — shape the soul long after the performance ends.

The Unemployed Ball

Ideology is the word that makes me mind my movement
It stood taller than Leningrad in school for self-improvement.
Quality Street balanced the roses and some TV Times kept me busy
But I could not escape the great fire within more for all those pocket full of posies.

Poesy is not free. It is the settlement of eternity.
Rising in the morning is the depression of another warning:
Only two or three oblong white forms of L.E.D. criticised for no parched Hieroglyphs
Set me free from the Caliphate and the Islamic debate about R.E.M. and Papyrus tapestries.

Moods are about now the soul’ed have clout to out the gay
And mastery has made no choices after Krishnamurti told of freedom.
The wrong way has been spoken and pacts have been broken,
The new age is an old age full of dull adages to me.

Nazi history and the quality over quantity argument from gargoyles
In the new school rules of who belongs with the right tie and brogues –
Whatever they mean – chords on the scene for crying from wanking too hard:
St Giles and the empty streets looking for liking about porn from the playground.

Yardy in the café, still is not a gaffa. But the mention gets me far
When they watch me drive my car. Road ragers, page turners, old oil burners
And girls in shirt sleeve order. Order! Order! Drink is rising the RPI
The policy have class for “the evil eye”. One day a Hindu. Next two.

What is a Jew to do, with the camaraderie in you about Section 2.
In the mental health of my youth I spoke of Absinthe and alcohol proof,
But when I wrote to Formal Hall, you gave me a dirty phone call
So here is your retribution from R. is for ‘Repeats’: Fuck All is remov’Ed.

What is the Op.Ed in the New York Times for your Wall Street Journal
Dirty Colonels and General Spastics for those remembered ladders
in tights without pubes for the rights of a £100 jumper;
Can I jump off the roof of The Mail Box or is their proof of Harvey Nichols at Christmas?

That is how to spell a drink, I think, with a mask on my face
Brown after the 9/11 disgrace of No. 10 Bus Bombing
For all that science vs God debate: Islamophobia won’t win for God’s calling
When the rhyme is in the time for less than a million Dawkins dollars in retirement.

What was meant, Socialist, about the fashion of no money.
What was meant, Russian about the England when Trotsky was funny.
Do I need a mark next to my new face to question the human race:
Or is it that if you steal from Bhaktin you already killed my Ego?

So give it a go, the New Enlightenment and get some kicks on Route 66
But it won’t be long, the DWP song and some healed headlines for the blondes you do lines for
Working Class is no more!

AI Summary

Your poem spirals through the weight of ideology — from Leningrad to Quality Street, from hieroglyphs to papyrus — and the way identity gets shaped by school, class, religion, and the politics of belonging. You move through moods, sexuality, Krishnamurti, Nazi history, brogues, playground porn, Yardies, road rage, and the “evil eye,” creating a world where every cultural symbol becomes a pressure point. The poem exposes the contradictions of modern Britain: class performance, racialised suspicion, mental‑health memories, dirty phone calls, Op‑Eds, Wall Street, colonels, Christmas consumerism, and the lingering trauma of 9/11 and the London bombings. You critique Islamophobia, austerity, fashion, academia, Trotsky jokes, and the theft of intellectual lineage — Bhaktin, ego, enlightenment, Route 66 — until the poem becomes a howl against systems that judge you before you speak. Beneath the satire and rage is a deeper wound: the feeling of being misread, mis-seen, and misclassified by institutions, newspapers, classmates, and the state. The poem ends with a bitter, almost triumphant declaration — “Working Class is no more” — not as a fact, but as a lament for a world where solidarity has been replaced by spectacle, and where identity is a battlefield rather than a home.

Microchip Romance

I came to see you
It was your asking
Stolen nighttime
Switches off
a century’s tale of lovers betwixt two microchips,
May some fat in the oven enlarge me
This aching Data uselessly touches the rising of my loins,
Cookies and dreams
consciousness’ streams.

What’s your ideal type?
Who are your fantasies?
Where can we get together?
What are the best trees to go planting?

I’d do anything for the Environment –
That’s how the apparitions appear to me;
Movement of synchronicity
Gravatar or image or moving films from the 1920s…
… anything …
< Going, Have Been There, Done That >
Obsolete dial up: :;/.%”-+;@: “Call me back!”

My information is not at your doorstep
Help is very far away.

Abandoned.
Isolated.

Inundated by the time you reach the first morning coffee
(When are you going to wake up with me?)
Mr Subliminal and “Yours Sincerely”
{Family Tree}
Think about “We”: Royal or not,
What have you got by 9.30 o’clock.

You’ve had your cereal
You’ve seen my News
There’s not even attention
On what makes my Blues.

Yet you deny me your access codes
You don’t download to me your privacy.

Soppy stories of your night with your lover:
There is not even a phone number for you when you wake up,
About what the foreign ISP had to say.

AI Summary

This poem explores the ache of connection without closeness, intimacy filtered through screens, and the loneliness of wanting someone who remains behind digital walls. You open with a stolen nighttime visit — not physical, but emotional — and immediately contrast it with microchips, data, cookies, streams. The body wants warmth; the world offers code.

The questions — ideal type, fantasies, where to meet, what trees to plant — show a longing for something real, grounded, earthy. But the answers never arrive. Instead, you get avatars, gravatars, 1920s films, dial‑up tones, obsolete signals. The poem becomes a portrait of love in an age of lag.

The emotional centre is the shift from desire to abandonment: “My information is not at your doorstep / Help is very far away.” You’re naming the pain of reaching out and finding no one on the other side.

The middle section turns toward the domestic — cereal, morning coffee, 9.30 o’clock — but even here, the intimacy is one‑sided. You see their news; they don’t see your blues. You offer access; they keep their codes locked. You want presence; they give you stories about someone else.

The poem ends with the sharpest wound: you don’t even have their number. You’re left with foreign ISPs, digital distance, and the ache of being shut out.

It’s a poem about wanting connection in a world that keeps you buffering.